I mean…I love summer this year 😊 That is unusual. I always hated the heat and the blinding sunshine. I loved clouds, wind, and dark environment. When I started drinking, it got worse. I couldn’t enjoy the outdoors during late spring or summer. I sweated and I got headaches. I thought it was natural. My preference. I know a lot of people who adore warm weather even when the thermometer hits 100 degrees and I always envied them. See, preference is one thing, completely saying away from any activities during a whole season is something else. Of course I had no idea that this was affected by alcoholism because I refused to remember the fact that I had no problems with the star called Sun when I was younger. I am not saying that I admired summer but I didn’t run away from it.
Things are changing. I was surprised at myself when I realized that I suddenly made peace with the heat and the sunshine. I can take it. I don’t sweat anymore and I don’t get headaches anymore when I spend more than 5 minutes outside. I learned to like it no matter how uncomfortable it might be. Actually, few days ago the temperature dropped and the sky was covered with dark clouds. I got depressed which was another surprise because I normally get depressed when it’s hot. I cannot state that summer will be my new favorite season. I will always stick with the beauty of fall. But don’t throw a tantrum every time when the temperature goes above 75 degrees. Since I don’t have the negative physical symptoms anymore, I happily handle it. (By the way, I believe that one of the reasons is the higher level of vitamin D in my system).
Is this really part of the recovery process? Do you guys have/had similar experiences?