I am in the middle of a master’s program. Today, I received an email in which they told me that I reached the limit of my federal student loan. I will not be covered after next January. Ummm. Okay. I don’t understand this system. Why didn’t they warn me before the program started? That would make sense. Anyhow, these situations normally (?) freak me out. I would panic and throw a tantrum. I would demand an immediate solution. Not anymore.
Since I got sober, I started to interpret events in a different way. First, this issue doesn’t affect me right now. Why would I even think about what will happen after next January? Second, it is totally useless to become angry because I cannot change the system. Third, I just have trust in God. I don’t have to be afraid of anything. My (quite new) trust impacts my attitude toward my abilities as well. I know that I will have options to finish my degree. This is not a huge problem actually. I am very surprised. I almost feel that I developed a new personality. Of course it is not me. It is God who works through me 🙂